OK, bit of brutal, heart-on-the-sleeve honesty here.
these have been 3 or 4 of the toughest years of my life yet God is still amazing and i'm truly in awe of Him.
We came back to the states after a couple of years of Bible college @ Hillsong with huge plans and dreams to take all this vision and faith and life and bloom wherever we planted. Wave Church is an amazing church with ties to Hillsong and is truly a world-changing church so we planted there.
But then life hit. Vision and faith and life are hard things to keep fresh without hard work and diligence. i have a tendency to get caught up in the day-to-day and you can't keep a Kingdom perspective easily when focusing on all the mundane daily details. don't get me wrong, those are important, but not as important.
i've heard that we are moving forward faith to faith. i thot that meant life was an incline - it was hard but you keep moving up and up to the next level. i'm finding my life is more like stairs with some that take some serious scaling to get up and others that go on for miles until the next one up comes. yes, i'm moving forward, but sometimes it's uphill in peanut butter.
my greatest fear is mediocrity and right now i feel like i'm fighting that big time. it's easy for me to see potential and greatness in all those around me - in creative, in my cell, my friends and family and especially Brook and the girls. i'm just not feeling it in me. and right now i'm fighting to trump my feelings with my faith. i AM more than a conquerer. i AM the head and not the tail. greater is He that IS in me than he that's in the world.
i'm thinking it's pride. i'm not where i think i should be and so it plays on me. i don't have the tight friends like i've had in the past and it plays on me. i'm not contributing as much as i would love to and it plays on me. i, i , i, me, me, me...you'd think i'd be waaaaaay past all this by now, but i guess another trip around the desert is needed to work this out.
ok, time to read and renew my mind and think on things above...
Concerts
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Hey well looky there I'm blogging again. I have had the honor of being
involved with bringing concerts to the old FFC for the past 2 plus years,
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2 comments:
Mom said-at times like these it is usually we are outside of God's will and need some soul searching and listening to see what areas we fall short. I know you can do it!!!! You guys are in my prayers daily. Love ya.
hi chuck - you & brook are amazing - simply because you are still in the race. after our running this race for Christ for so many years we too have felt that by now we should have accomplished something, fulfilled our 'calling'. but when i read what paul says - he says 'run your race with the prize set before you'. and as the years roll by sometimes just staying in the race seems to bring others off the rails. we have seen so many of the christian friends we had that were all fired up a few years ago now no longer in church, not living for Christ, not even sure where they are in their faith. and i am more impressed with those that stay committed to Jesus even when they are not seeing or doing the big 'calling'. the boring day to day of life is the biggest challenge. i have no doubt that you and brook will accomplish all your dreams.
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