Yearning for the Wild

I've been thinking about how tame i am. i work in a cool office. live in a great, comfortable house. have heat and ac in house, car and work.

But something in me wants a fight. i want to run with scissors or climb up on the roof or drive in a blinding snowstorm or play tackle football in a mudpit. i need something untamed.

I've read Wild at Heart and know that as a man, i need a battle. I'm reading a book on the wild Jesus from the book of Mark. but there's something deeper than just reading books.

there is a true craving to roar like a man. Any woman reading this probably won't understand, hopefully the men will. there is something primal that needs to come out. Playing music helps to release that. As a bass player/singer, there is definitely something wild about that rumble of the bass and a good yell or scream.

I think i need some man-time. some camping and hiking, growing a neck beard, finding and cooking your food over a flame. anyone have an empty cabin i could hide away for a few days in? anyone up for some gut-level living? strength, passion, honesty - that's what i'm looking for.

Not quite getting it

Ok, Obama's election i get. But re-electing and increasing a Democrat congress makes no sense to me when they had such a low approval rating makes no sense to me.

I'm sitting a waiting to see how left this new government goes. Obama is the most liberal senator in the senate. He moved waaaaay to the middle for the election, but you know he's going back to the left. and now with Pelosi and Reid with more power, the country will be tipping west.

It's all a wait and see.

So God

After 3 years of renting, we're finally getting a house. We close this week and will be moving next weekend. Yessssss.

We moved to Virginia Beach right at the peak of the housing bubble. We had lived in Ohio for 13 years and owned 3 houses there, not all at the same time, but sold when we moved to Australia for 2 years. So we came to a more expensive area and to extreme sticker shock.

we knew we would rent for a while, until we learned the area. we just weren't ready for even the rental prices and didn't think we'd rent for 3 years. we were blessed to find a townhouse with a garage for storage and a great landlord who was responsive and even took care of stuff we didn't ask about.

But here we are. Packing, cleaning, sorting, Goodwilling. it's always good to go thru your stuff, we just have a lot more with 5 of us in the house.

i'll post more about the move and settling in later. I'm just amazed at God's timing. at the height of a freaky market and housing stuff, He works out an amazing deal on a great house in a great neighborhood. So God.

Tired of it

I just need to blow off a little steam. You see, i work in news. i'm surrounded by monitors carrying all the news of the day - Fox/CNN/MSNBC/Business/Headlines - and also feeds from the wires and email alerts...I'm in it.

I'm really sickened by the wall-to-wall coverage of the financial meltdown. I'm pretty sure it's a nasty situation that started back in the 70's with some dodgy legislation on guaranteeing mortgages. Greenspan didn't help things with some of his controls and then the whole Fannie/Freddie housing bubble thing has really brought this thing to a head. I'm pretty conservative and don't like a lot of government intervention and really don't appreciate some of the measures the government has implemented to bail failing enterprises out.

But i think the media - old and new - have contributed just as much as anything else. When people only see how bad things are, they are going to panic and pull their money and support from pretty much everything that might hurt them. This defense mechanism, while good for protection, is bad for the economy and then makes it tank even more.

I want to, in some way, convince people to take a step back and breathe. If you have money invested, let it ride. Unless you need that money in the next few years, stocks are for the long term. I would suggest also getting rid of personal debt. As the economy turns, companies will probably want the money owed them and i figure it's always better not to owe.

Panic and emotional responses don't really ever solve anything. Cool heads, patience and a trust that God is in control is the way to move forward. God's people are PROMISED that He will never leave us or forget about us - NEVER!! God doesn't need Wall Street or George Bush to bless and care for His people.

More to come...

A Bitter Pill

Have you thought all was on track and you knew exactly what was happening was what was supposed to happen? Have you ever had it all figured out? Yeah, me too. But now...

I keep thinking of that verse that says that God's ways are not our ways. I'm very thankful for that point because i know my ways often mess things up. I'm just trying to figure out God's ways now. I thought i was figuring out my calling and what i was meant to do, but what i thought is just not happening and i don't see in the natural what is going on.

I'm confident in the fact that it only takes a moment for God to move. It's my job to love, worship and serve Him gladly. I realize i'm not the center of the universe and my calling is VERY secondary to God's fame and people coming to know Him.

It's a hard pill for my flesh to swallow, but one my spirit needs. Die to self, serve humbly, love God, love others.

Lil' Nor'Easter

Just a little bit of wind and rain here. Pretty nasty when mixed together. You know it's working towards bad when you see a report on the Weather Channel from your city. Some reporter guy was down on the beach showing the rough waters and beach errosion. all the surfers are happy. I guess it's all about perspective.

Eye opening

I was made aware last night that it was coming up on a year since my last blog entry. I have been keeping stuff on Facebook, MySpace and Twitter if any of you are interested. But i promise to try to keep this up as well.

What a season! Elections, storms, school starting, new season at church, life-coaching. Oh my. These are exciting times to live and God is moving despite what some leaders would have us think. These are time of increase and harvest and blessing! Who knows what circumstances we may face tomorrow or later today? I do know that my God will supply all my needs according to His riches in glory. He is also able to make all grace abound to us, so that in all things at all times, having all that we need, we will abound in every good work.

Be blessed!